Another day, another rant in my journal..

( not directed to any of my moots on neocities, ily guys <3 )
I don't know why I even bother trying to socialize with people anymore (especially online..). I meet new people and its fun for a few days, I get to know them, we hang out, talk a bunch together.. and then bam! I'm being overlooked in conversations, and its like i'm not even there sometimes. It hurts a lot. And maybe its just me? Am i boring? I don't know, and I don't think i ever will. Maybe I need to try harder? I wish people would just tell me if they don't want me around instead of just ignoring me and shutting me out..
this is more so directed at a specific group of people.. and I might tell them how i feel later today. I just don't like being left confused like this.